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your design of me
#marcia#digital art#illustration#original art#yay its doneeee#oh garret#im sorry its always the same#its always about being a means to an end#and its doesnt matter if its a cold and calculating eye or a warm naive vision#they dont want you for you. they only want what you can do for them#and feeling needed and irreplaceable stopped feeling nice 3 lifetimes ago#all that is left are frustration and anger#dont you get it? dont you get it? the contours of what makes me me are not in the shape of your needs and wants#orion lavont#rosie lavont#garret#tcm#the clockmaster#oc#MARCIA CONTINUING HER MISSION TO SHIT COLOUR MAXIMALIST STYLE!#you know when youre trying something for the first time and youre like uh oh im having a feeling im not excellent at it from the get go#looowkey how im feeling#as you know ive been trying to incorporate more colours into my works#but i am yet to truly understand what im doing#i dont want to stumble into results with adjustment layers anymore#i wish to do things on purpose#I want to be in control! I want to make conscious choices!!!#anyway the purpose of these was to do something new and quirky#something other than faithful rendering#the most challenging part of this pic was probably all the papers. adjusting the perspective and all
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i think marinette is worse at resting when she's sick but adrien is worse at sitting things out if he's injured. i have no explanation, these are just the vibes
#ml#marinette dupain cheng#adrien agreste#okay i lied i do have justifications#adrien probably just. would love being taken care of if he's sick#it's maybe something his mom used to do but not ENOUGH#and marinette would absolutely spoil him#but marinette is all I AM FINE IT IS JUST A COLD I AM FINE meanwhile she nearly falls off a rooftop in a dizzy spell#but adrien hate being kept away from ppl he loves. hates not being able to protect them. and an injury is more long-term and isolating#meanwhile...idk marinette feels to me like an injurt would leave her more defeated. she'd feel like she failed somehow#like she is SUPPOSED to be ladybug she is SUPPOSED to keep herself together to keep the city safe#so i think that would take a lot of her energy she'd be frustrated about it yes but also sort of...admit defeat#adrien would find ways to cheer her up though 🥺
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Fixed an older doodle of when I first drew these two... Realized I drew Shmilk's hair more Sonic-shaped in a lot of my later doodles but after seeing one artist draw it more tentacle-like I wanted to go back and attempt it myself (o^▽^o) Really happy with the result!
Also, I like Shmilk being shorter it's funnier to me ^^"
#digital sketch#sketch#doodle#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#shadow milk cookie#pureshadow#shadowvanilla#fun fact: the second sketch was supposed to be a lil comic but I ran out of patience... might attempt again when I am not frustrated#also just finished the latest jambound update and I am unwell and need to draw them more
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The Quest Continues...
(part 1- part 2)
#Fourfold Soul#<- That's the title of the project I've been working on!#I am very excited to finally show off the cowboy (gender redacted) I've been cooking in a slow boil!!! Yeehaw!#Yes this is the game project. YES I am commited to the bit of having the main character go through a long running pronoun-quest.#This character does not have a name so I cannot formally tag them...#(Okay. Technically they have an internal name for coding/scripting reasons...and I have a nickname for them.#But the important part of making a video game character you get to eventually name is that the name must come from *you*!)#The girl here is a npc so she has a temporary name. So I also cannot tag her. Hmm...#I have several FFS comics thumbnailed out. This one got made first because it's the funniest without context. Lore wise it's weak.#I would love to post the sexy clown but you have to wait just a few more comics.#Fun artist woes moment to share: This is the first time I've had to colour these characters traditionally. *That* was NOT fun.#Going from a specific digital colour palette to being at the whims of my limited colour choices in markers? Hell! On! Earth!#I might also be extra frustrated because this sure is 3x the length of what I usually do for comics! I spent a Whole Day on this.#Past me thought it was soooo funny and needed all the extra panels for pacing. I hate past me. That guy needs to be exploded.
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old RE stuff i didnt finish
#resident evil#re4#re2#second is based on my darkside chronicles experience with a friend#was gonna be one of them fat ugly frog things jumping behind em that was the entire punchline but leons arm frustrated me so bad i quit 😭#back in ... april#i miss my RE era#my art#shocked i never made more RE art tbh for how fixated i was#took a reblog to realise i forgot to tag claire#claire redfield#claire baby angel i am so sorry 💔
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i finished black sails…..i am unwell…
#JAMES FLINT YOU DESERVE THE WORLD#i am LOSING IT#the end was so good and so frustrating and i’m so happy but also so angry#how is this show so damn good????#why isn’t it more popular??#why did it take me so long to watch it???#oh my god i’m so overwhelmed with emotions right now#this is instantly a new all time favorite show#black sails
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summer nights in the korcari wilds
#loghain mac tir#maric theirin#rowan guerrin#loghain x maric x rowan#dragon age#the stolen throne#da fanart#da the stolen throne#yes i’ve fallen down the hole#i finally started reading the novels and#never have i been MORE frustrated with three characters#polyamory exists my sweets#yes maric has been rearranging their boots#hey what if rowan braided both maric’s & her own strands into loghain’s hair#37hrs i am speeding save yourselves#zazrichart#procreate
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having seen at least the rough outlines of all the romances now I have to say that I think emmrich's is probably objectively the best in terms of coherence and completeness of story arc (with the understanding that ultimately the 'best' romance is whichever one makes YOUR heart sing anyway so objectivity is a silly thing to claim that way, it just felt like it's the arc with the most well-paced focused content and the least dangling threads)... but lucanis' is my favourite haha. just. the whole kneeling before your beloved full of reverence but without any of the distance that usually implies??? his complete undramatic certainty and calm in every scene with rook after this, having spent the whole game caught between fear and longing???? mr. lives in a pantry but it says nothing about my psyche don't worry about it it's purely for tactical reasons that I keep myself contained in a small dark room not entirely unlike a cell, love among the parsnips -- finally coming to rook in their room and it's so comfortable and comforting???? after all the times rook supports and comforts him through the game he's finally able to return the same to them when they need it while being so calm and steady and it's so fucking sweet and feels so effortless and with no price attached?????? he basically assigns himself the role of your bodyguard and he WILL stab a god over it??????????????? the turn to protector (which was in his heart all along longing to get out and find a place) of it all????? he sounds like he's found himself unexpectedly stumbling into such a soul-lightening state of revelatory existential relief, full on 'you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves' mary oliver style, and he goes and he shares that with rook and protectively envelops them in it when they're hurting??????????????????????????? hello for the maker's sake hello can anyone hear me?????
#listen I was forged in the fires of garrusmancing. I went through two whole games just to get a gentle headbutt and some tender words#before me3 comes along and rewards you for your tenacity more fully#me? the reyes romancer???? I have the strength and headcanon game to bear the relative lack of content before the end#when the endgame is this good I am willing to hold out for it haha the way he looks at rook towards the end......#I also really liked taash' (it's really sweet) but I don't think I have any rooks ready to go right now who would go for that vibe#emmrich for sure is going to be my either crow or shadow dragon romance it really is very good! and extremely goth not unrelatedly#undeniably that old man has the most game out of anyone in this story. the move with the flower??? I'm sorry????#I actually like that lucanis' romance blooms out of the safety of an established friendship more than anything (again. avowed garrusmancer)#but emmrich... he's got some next level romantic stuff going on and is being both so wholesome and such a freak about it lmao#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#all jokes aside I totally respect and understand that people are a bit disappointed and frustrated -- they're not wrong to feel that!#there really are some gaps in content there for the midgame#however I was personally custom built by experience to get the most out of this scenario as possible and by god I will#just as I feel that ryder and reyes go off and have some soul-shrivingly good sex after the first kiss#(it makes that arc make a lot more sense to me haha)#I think rook and lucanis Get Up To It after the second coffee date. weird of them to not show us that but okay I'll fill it in myself then
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codtwt is going off on brainwashed!soap bc of his new warzone skin and it’s making me think of ghost deliberately getting himself captured by makarov bc he knows he’ll be given to his dog to try and break him; knows he won’t be able to resist the irony, the cruelty of being tortured by the teammate he lost
he doesn’t fight; welcomes the chains around his wrists and ankles, welcomes the hands stripping him of his weapons and gear until he's defenceless
he wouldn't use them anyway
when he stalks into the room, the muzzle, the scars, not even the blank hatred or lack of recognition could make him mistake his eyes
that's his johnny
he doesn't flinch as he digs knives into his skin; would never shy away from his kiss even if it's tinged with rusted steel. doesn't swallow his screams; not when he always loved hearing him, when he spent so long coaxing his voice from the grave
frustration joins the anger in johnny's eyes the longer he goes without giving up information
just jokes; dark and puns alike
just advice when he can't get the jumper cables to spark right
ghost's not trying to escape; not trying to barter his return to the 141
he's right where he wants to be
#ghost letting him be tortured indefinitely if it means being with johnny i am going to eat glass#he doesnt even care if he never gets him back. if the brainwashing is permanent#he still treats him the same. gives him openings to meet a punchline or rib him for something#no matter how long he goes without responding. without giving him any hope of becoming the man he knew#if pain is all he’ll ever get from johnny again he’ll welcome it gratefully with open arms#he got his share of kindness. more than he ever thought he deserved. if pain has to balance it out then so be it#so long as johnny is the one giving it to him#meanwhile soap gets more and more frustrated that he cant break this soldier#that when he becomes more inventive he just meets him with a story about people he doest know but acts like he should#that every day when his master calls him away he leaves with a soft - /loving/ - see you tomorrow johnny echoing in his ears#he doesnt understand#and it just makes him more vicious#but the soldier doesnt care#he still smiles in the face of pain#still calls him johnny#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#soap cod#john soap mactavish#ghost x soap#save post
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I recently finished watching It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia, so I drew The Gang
#Mac is fucking impossible to draw i'm struggling so hard trying to nail his design down#Like it's so hard capturing what his face looks like#I've only been able to do it once#Dennis is kinda hard to draw too- but not as much as Mac#Which is frustrating because lemme tell yall- I am endlessly enthralled by that man#He's my favorite by far#Anyways- expect more art for this show bc I love it so much#its always sunny in philadelphia#iasip#iasip fanart#charlie kelly#charlie day#frank reynolds#danny devito#mac mcdonald#rob mcelhenney#dennis reynolds#glenn howerton#dee reynolds#kaitlin olson#my art
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more gunslinger abigail my beloved 🫶
+ sadigail crumbs ofc (u guys why haven't i seen any drawings of abi braiding sadie's hair 😠)
#i KNOW sadie gets frustrated braiding her hair some mornings#thank god abigail is there to help always#only want to draw this abigail from now on idc about canon anymore#just wanna draw them being gfs in love comitting crimes :(#also im trying to draw more backgrounds! they're a mess but i am trying y'all#sadigail#rdr2#rdr2 fanart#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption 2 fanart#red dead redemption#abigail roberts#sadie adler#abigail marston#gunslinger abigail#evgarart#my art
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Wearing your boyfriend's jacket
#for the anon asking who would wear it#any one of my characters WOULD wear it#its just a matter of how...#you dont understand my passion for fashion and what this means ok#it means an article of clothing is not about the clothing at all#its about how it fits and what it goes with and how you choose to wear it#a shirt is not just a shirt its a part of a whole...#I'm so passionate about this... it doesnt really show in my comics but thats mostly cause. there is only so much time I can devote to thing#anyways#adam is able to make anything look good#and steve is able to make anything seem like hes owned it for 10 years#they can both wear anything but in extremely different ways...#anyways this was a nice little break#its been hard HAHAHAHHA not gonna lie having an extremely rough time#I so so so do not want to return working for webtoon#I need you to know I am ONLY doing this for my readers#because I could use more time. I could use forever away from webtoon#but. I want to see the comic through! and so I will.#I'm so tired of them...#and also still frustrated by people being like 'is this ever coming back' and all that#but its fine. its coming back I'm working on it...#and its good.. its gonna be so good......#time and time again#ttawebcomic#adam and steve#sketch#I JUST REALIZED I SAID ANON...#I MEANT ASK#my brain just calls all asks anon
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As frustrating as reading x men fics as a big magneto fan can be, I've started getting pretty good at picking up on tells that he's going to be writen poorly (or not to my taste) so I don't waste much time on stuff I don't like
Like the words "metallokinetic" or "metal-bender" are an instant drop for me
Random German words is a big red flag too but I'm willing to over look it if something is pulling me in strong enough (rare)
It's hard to point out but a lot of fics take on a subtley dehumanizing tone when writing him that's pretty easy to pick up on quickly
Any fics but especially cherik ones that take on the "telepaths are the least accepted mutants" angle also have a high chance of being very unempathetic towards Erik
I also don't fuck with any fics that are even slightly unkind to Magda or in any way minimize Erik's feelings for her or their relationship
#a lot of this is minimized by just....not reading movie verse fics anymore but vetting is still necessary for “all media” fics#stop blorbo abuse now#mostly i just stick to talking about stuff with my irl hommies but internet fandom is fun!! i want that!!#to clarify erik is a deeply flawed person and you should write him as such but way to many of yall write him like hes a rabid animal#bad political writing is a big one too like#like the author having a different opinion than me is fine but when they clearly dont understand either side of the arguments im out#yeaaaaah im not taging this one#im not negative aaaaalll the time guys i promise. this fandom is just more frustrating to me than most#nah you know what fuck it ill tag JUST magneto#i dont want this to get much reach cause i am just bitching here but maybe some other magneto simps will GET me lol
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While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.
Bye.
#ask me#anon#once AGAIN.#I am not dropping anything#the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again#But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year#In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related#I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped#And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it#I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas.#Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop#Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas#But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now#But I didn't because I'm TIRED#I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired#what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen#drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter#it can really make you freak out#And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will#I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my#followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm#disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing#you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere#I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.
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I feel like in 10 to 20 years there is going to be a "genre" of cult classics that consists of abandoned first seasons of netflix shows with great world building, amazing relatively unknown young actors and hints of or actual queer representation. And I'm gonna be in the comments of the youtube essay about it, remembering them all with the same feeling i have about firefly.
#own post#dead boy detectives#the bastard son & the devil himself#lockwood and co#I am not ok with this#and several more shows#i hope netflix had some sort of downfall until then#although in a way that didn't remove all their shows from public access because that would be a fucking library of alexandria of television#i HATE that they won't release their shit on dvd#like that is insane it makes me incandescent with rage and frustration
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woke up early to roll out and shape the croissant dough and to make the dough for the lemon poppyseed brioche twist so it would all have time to proof :)) everything is turning out pretty well so far
#knock on wood#i used to be pretty awful at baking#like the science of it just was not making sense to me#and i’ve done so much trial and error#and then the last 4 days i’ve been juggling 4-5 baking projects at once#and i’ve learned how to set myself up to do multiple recipes at once pretty smoothly#i’m really proud of myself hehe#i definitely am more of a natural cook than a baker bc there’s less hard and fast rules#but i do loveeee baking and baked goods#it took so much longer to get good at for me tho it was frustrating lolll#also having a functional oven helps bc it heats to the Actual temp now#our old one ran cold so it took a ton of fidgeting to get the Actual temp i would need#anyway#learning new stuff is cool once you get over the failing part LOL#personal
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